With MySpace.com, are blog sites now becoming a thing of the past? Or, am I just getting a lot less visibility? There was a time that I couldn't keep up with the posts on my blog... of course, maybe my life is a lot less interesting right now too. It's a curiousity.... I'm wearing out these days. I forgot what it was like to date a young girl - more emotionally free. Perhaps less callus. I remember when I was younger - emotions streamed from me so freely. It was hard to stop them. Now I feel like a observer of life - almost not emotionally affected by anything anymore. It's not that I'm not affected... well, I'm not as affected, but I'm also happy to feel emotions; even the bad ones. I feel bad for the girl I am seeing now. She's very upset and bothered by everything. It's wearing me down a bit. I can't help but look at myself and wonder if I'm doing the things I ought to be doing, if I'm forgetting to address my emotions, or if I ought to drop her to spare her the pain I'm causing. I think she's a great woman - the best I've ever dated - but I'm not sure I feel in-love with her. She expresses that she is in-love with me all the time, but I can't bring myself to say it back. I won't unless I feel it. So, I've started to wonder if I'm addressing my needs. I think there's a chance I could be staying because I don't want to see her hurt. I know that if that is the case, I ought to break it off to spare her. But it also made me wonder if, in general, I fail to try to meet my needs - that I stay in relationships too long because I don't want the other person to hurt. If I am failing to meet my needs, then.... Got to run...

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