I'm in a graduate program at GVSU and I've started to wonder if I ought to just screw this program and go for a PhD. Its just that I wonder if this program will really do what I want it to do for me - it's not the piece of paper that I'm looking for... it's the information. Maybe the education route is not the right path for me - the information I want is is other areas...
Most importantly, I suppose I want to use my brain again. It seems like it's been so long since I've actually had to think hard about anything. My brain is starting to feel like jello. The most complex organ we have - capable of adapting to incredible circumstances - and the best we subject it to is the Simpson's on Tuesday evenings.
I'm sitting in the class room right now... getting ready for my midterm exam. I haven't studied - just like every assignment so far in this class. I expect to breeze through the work with some problems, but not many. It's sort of a bummer. The classroom of people doesn't really seem worried either. I mean, there are plenty of people in here that are studying and trying to get the work done on time, but overall the atmosphere is not that high-strung buzz that you feel at other universities.
Was this program a mistake? Should I just finish it and then move on?
Maybe it's just this class. Perhaps the program will get more difficult. Even still, perhaps I ought to take more classes every semester.
All this aside, the girl issues are still there. Sometimes I feel like I ought to be single for a while - just let myself be lonely. Maybe. It's just that it's so easy to meet girls all the time - making most of them seem very uninteresting. It's not normally like this for me - but I can't figure out what changed.
Well, I ought to go now... it's about time to start....
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